Dancing under the Gallows

I just saw a trailer for a documentary called, Dancing under the Gallows. The oldest living holocaust survivor is 107 this month. Alice Herz-Sommer was 39 when she was arrested. I was amazed at her love of life. She lives for music and has no hate for what was done to her. She says, "every day, life is beautiful." What an inspiration. The Nazis allowed the Jews in this camp to perform music and plays and paint because they were using it as propaganda. It seemed like they never noticed that it gave the prisoners an escape in their minds and they found hope in this. Many of them survived.

God is more powerful than anything man can do. Even in the darkest times God is there to hold us. Man may destroy the body but they cannot touch what is God's, the soul.

"Only when we are so old are we aware of the beauty of life." I hope that I can be aware of it now.

Thank you Alice.

Time

I wonder how I can have a whole week go by with nothing to show for it. Maybe one or two actual events but the rest is just gone. I try to hold onto this time with Belle. She won't be little for much longer. Yet, day after day I am tired for no reason. We stay home and veg. All day! I need a stop watch for my life. Or a pause button. That would be helpful. Time for a nap.

Been away a long time. Here is a recap of the last few months.

Took a road trip.

Visited PA, OH, MI, KY.

Drove over 1,000 miles.

Watched many kid's tv shows.

Sang songs.

Cleaned the house.

Helped the husband.

Saw the in-laws.

Got a new nephew!

Spent money.

Slept.

Ate.

Laughed.

Reliant K

I am trying twice as hard to satisfy myself on my own.

I'm still waiting for things to change.

I lay my life before you and I'm not getting up.

Father, how I adore you.

Those words are not enough.

Father, know I love you and know that I am wrong.

But please take my life and make me your son.

I lay my life before you and I'm not getting up.

Father, how I adore you.

Those words are not enough.

Am I at the point of no improvement?

What of the death I still dwell in

I try to excel but I feel no movement.

Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

Never underestimate my Jesus,

You telling me that there is no hope

I am telling you you're are wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus

When the world around you crumbles

He will be strong, he will be strong.

Listening to these two songs today. I slightly abridged the first one.

They have some great lines. All that I have, I lay before. With my pride on the floor, cuz' to you less is more.

May this be my prayer today.

Not Posting

I wish I was better at the blog. I have thoughts but apparently I can't get to the computer to share. Spring break was this week so busy with the family. We saw family every day. It was fun but tiring.

Layout

So here is my latest scrap layout. I want to have more finished but alas...not the case. I think I need reassurance that it looks good so I take a long time to finish 2 pages.

This is the summer trip to Maine. I need to journal in the lower right corner. I am not sure what to say yet. Over all I am happy with the outcome.

Sinus

It is now Friday. My allergies thought they would kick into gear regardless of the actual season. Maybe I need to go back to the chiropractor. It was making such a wonderful difference but then I wanted to save money. Now that I think about it I will call them today. Maybe they won't hate me so much for missing my last appointment 5 months ago and never calling them. I really fail at that. I feel so bad that I missed it and then stressed about it so I just never called them. I like my sentences in this post. Long and rambling maybe I should throw in a few misspellings. Or maybe not.

I took so many various sinus drugs that my nose hairs are freaking out. My head pressure is building and my desire to be awake is diminishing. Too bad Belle can't just snuggle with me. She wants to play and run and jump and hop. That is too much for me at the moment.

This post has turned out to be completely useless. Oh well....hodgepodge right?

Love letter to Coffee

My love affair with coffee did not take hold until college. I tried the instant coffee at church functions in high school but I can't count that. I didn't try 'real' coffee until I was in university. My sophomore roommate would make a 4 cup pot and we would down it regularly. 4-5 pots a day. I started ordering it when I went out. I had to have it with creamer and sugar...lots of those. Then I got married.....more coffee. Dan introduced me to the coffee shop coffee. So good. Still lots of sugar. Over the years I have been able to appreciate the coffee flavor itself. Now I don't use any sugar and just a little skim milk. I love coffee. I want to drink it all day. It makes me feel warm and ready to face the day.

Here's to you Coffee....may you always be brewing!

More Crafty Ideas

Belle's birthday is tomorrow. I can't believe she will be 2! I don't know what else to say about that. It seems like a very long time ago that I had her. But on the other hand it seems like yesterday that she turned one.

I was at Party City looking at, you guessed it, party items. I saw the tiaras and wanted to get one for Belle. I was not going to pay $7 or $10 for a silly little thing that said birthday princess. The $2 was so cheap looking that it almost broke in my hand. So I came home and thought about it. I figured I could try to make something cool. I have plastic headbands that are not being used. So I taped two together, wrapped it with ribbon, and made the top part. I was going to use some sort of boa or ribbon to embellish like the had in the store. But I didn't like what I had to then I found some buttons.

I am so impressed withe the outcome. I love it and it looks so very awesome on Belle's head!!!

Crafty Copies

Maybe my motto should be, 'There is nothing new under the sun'. I see stuff people create or do and I am like, hmmm, I can totally do that. It doesn't always work out for me but I still try. My wonderful sister found this scarf and made one like it for her daughter. I think to myself, I can totally do that.

So here is my version of the 'Knotty Girl' scarf. I really wanted something to match my new coat so I chose purpley colors. I will just believe that it is cool even if it is not. I need a boost on the creative front.

Wow, I look thrilled.

On a side note: here is my new hat. I think I look trendy most of the time. In this picture I look a bit goofy.

Stomach Bug

Belle has been sick. Throwing up and diarrhea. This is my conclusion. I hate to throw up. I hate that feeling and the smell. I know how Belle feels but I have to admit I am glad it is her that is actually throwing up and not me. Poor girl. The worst is when she begs and sobs for water. I don't want to give her anything in fear of more vomit.

Now Dan is sick. At least he can take care of himself. I felt ill but nothing came of it. So glad I got past this thing.

Blind Side

I saw the movie 'The Blind Side' last night. I loved it. It was everything I wanted in a movie. Funny, heart warming, great ending. I like to leave the theater in a good mood. Then my friend and I were going to stop at Doc Chey's for a bite to eat. They are closed!! I am so so sad. Some stupid hospitality tax violation. What is that? You go out of business for not paying taxes? Stupid company.

The movie got me thinking. I wish I could be a foster parent sometimes. I see that so many kids need a place to be safe and loved. I could give them that. But dealing with DSS would make me angry I am sure. They are overworked and I truly don't think they are doing what is in the best interest if the child. I feel like I have a heart to help but maybe not the wallet at this time.

Belle is almost 2

I took Belle to get her 2 year pictures. I am happy with the outcome. I do wish she was smiling more but the appointment went so well that I am not going to complain. She could have been crying and running away. She posed and was sweet and said 'cheese'. It was not stressful. I let her play in the playground at the mall afterwards. Then she wanted a cookie so we left and went back to get our pictures and she got the cookie. It was great.

So here are two of her shots. I used my last two punches on my picture people card to get sheets. Also, 25 invitations for $25. Can't beat that, not even with a stick.

Taking Pictures

I want to take cool pictures. Easy to take cool pictures. Is there such a thing? I want to be able to print these so called cool pictures. Maybe I should be happy I can take any type of picture.

Hodgepodge you say

I feel like I live a hodgepodge life. A messy mixture. I am not just a mom or wife or worker bee. I have the 23 month old daughter....the artist husband.....the crazy boss...the extended family....the house in various forms of disarray.

So much to do but not enough time. Should I clean, take a walk, watch tv, scrap, email, drink coffee, play Wii, play WOW, play on the ipod, call someone, eat, fold laundry, go shopping, or just sleep? Blog....that is the choice for now.