Dancing under the Gallows

I just saw a trailer for a documentary called, Dancing under the Gallows. The oldest living holocaust survivor is 107 this month. Alice Herz-Sommer was 39 when she was arrested. I was amazed at her love of life. She lives for music and has no hate for what was done to her. She says, "every day, life is beautiful." What an inspiration. The Nazis allowed the Jews in this camp to perform music and plays and paint because they were using it as propaganda. It seemed like they never noticed that it gave the prisoners an escape in their minds and they found hope in this. Many of them survived.

God is more powerful than anything man can do. Even in the darkest times God is there to hold us. Man may destroy the body but they cannot touch what is God's, the soul.

"Only when we are so old are we aware of the beauty of life." I hope that I can be aware of it now.

Thank you Alice.

Time

I wonder how I can have a whole week go by with nothing to show for it. Maybe one or two actual events but the rest is just gone. I try to hold onto this time with Belle. She won't be little for much longer. Yet, day after day I am tired for no reason. We stay home and veg. All day! I need a stop watch for my life. Or a pause button. That would be helpful. Time for a nap.

Been away a long time. Here is a recap of the last few months.

Took a road trip.

Visited PA, OH, MI, KY.

Drove over 1,000 miles.

Watched many kid's tv shows.

Sang songs.

Cleaned the house.

Helped the husband.

Saw the in-laws.

Got a new nephew!

Spent money.

Slept.

Ate.

Laughed.

Reliant K

I am trying twice as hard to satisfy myself on my own.

I'm still waiting for things to change.

I lay my life before you and I'm not getting up.

Father, how I adore you.

Those words are not enough.

Father, know I love you and know that I am wrong.

But please take my life and make me your son.

I lay my life before you and I'm not getting up.

Father, how I adore you.

Those words are not enough.

Am I at the point of no improvement?

What of the death I still dwell in

I try to excel but I feel no movement.

Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

Never underestimate my Jesus,

You telling me that there is no hope

I am telling you you're are wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus

When the world around you crumbles

He will be strong, he will be strong.

Listening to these two songs today. I slightly abridged the first one.

They have some great lines. All that I have, I lay before. With my pride on the floor, cuz' to you less is more.

May this be my prayer today.

Not Posting

I wish I was better at the blog. I have thoughts but apparently I can't get to the computer to share. Spring break was this week so busy with the family. We saw family every day. It was fun but tiring.

Layout

So here is my latest scrap layout. I want to have more finished but alas...not the case. I think I need reassurance that it looks good so I take a long time to finish 2 pages.

This is the summer trip to Maine. I need to journal in the lower right corner. I am not sure what to say yet. Over all I am happy with the outcome.

Sinus

It is now Friday. My allergies thought they would kick into gear regardless of the actual season. Maybe I need to go back to the chiropractor. It was making such a wonderful difference but then I wanted to save money. Now that I think about it I will call them today. Maybe they won't hate me so much for missing my last appointment 5 months ago and never calling them. I really fail at that. I feel so bad that I missed it and then stressed about it so I just never called them. I like my sentences in this post. Long and rambling maybe I should throw in a few misspellings. Or maybe not.

I took so many various sinus drugs that my nose hairs are freaking out. My head pressure is building and my desire to be awake is diminishing. Too bad Belle can't just snuggle with me. She wants to play and run and jump and hop. That is too much for me at the moment.

This post has turned out to be completely useless. Oh well....hodgepodge right?